I'm up early today. I set the alarm for 5:00 a.m. but I turned it off at 4:45 a.m. because I was ready to roll out of bed. I've been really achy lately. It seems like if I keep moving, I don't ache but once I sit down or lay down to sleep, everything hurts.
I was talking with a couple of my gal pals yesterday while we were out motorcycling. I was telling them that I am really wrestling with the changes my body is going through getting older and, well, I tried to have a little pity party but they would have none of it. I love that. Instead, they gave me a short pep talk and said, "oh, girl, this is the best time of your life! This is harvest time!"
I thought a lot about that as I was riding yesterday and I must have gone to bed thinking about it because I got up and got moving this morning. I've washed two loads of laundry, took the dog for her 2-mile walk, visited the grocery store and had my bowl of oatmeal. It's only 8:30 a.m. as I write this.
The truth: I'm packing around an extra 30 lbs. of fat and it is driving me crazy. I'm pretty sure when (not if) I get this weight gone, I'm going to feel better. How could I not? Ugh. Everything is such an effort. I can't even believe I'm posting this photo here but I put it out on FB last night as I had some great pics of my friends I wanted to share.
I cannot hide the fact I have gained far too much weight. No freaking wonder I don't feel good.
Last week, we visited an antique store when we were in Prosser. There was an older woman there who I think is the owner of the store. She was
sitting laying in a lazy-boy recliner and it was obvious she didn't move much from that chair. I could really see myself in that position someday as the more weight I gain, the harder and harder it is to move. One just feels like a slug. I need to keep moving.
So, I'm not going to make any crazy promises or big plan to lose 30 lbs. in 30 days or anything like that. I know what I need to do it. I just need to do it.
Thanks to my friends Jan and Dorothy for the words of encouragement. The words mean so much to me.
I gotta go now and cross some more things off my to-do list. One of the things not on my to-do list is self-loathing. It's not helpful. I need to stop doing that and get into physical action.