Monday, June 13, 2011

Walk It Off

I'm up early today. I set the alarm for 5:00 a.m. but I turned it off at 4:45 a.m. because I was ready to roll out of bed.  I've been really achy lately. It seems like if I keep moving, I don't ache but once I sit down or lay down to sleep, everything hurts. 

I was talking with a couple of my gal pals yesterday while we were out motorcycling. I was telling them that I am really wrestling with the changes my body is going through getting older and, well, I tried to have a little pity party but they would have none of it. I love that. Instead, they gave me a short pep talk and said, "oh, girl, this is the best time of your life! This is harvest time!"
I thought a lot about that as I was riding yesterday and I must have gone to bed thinking about it because I got up and got moving this morning. I've washed two loads of laundry, took the dog for her 2-mile walk, visited the grocery store and had my bowl of oatmeal. It's only 8:30 a.m. as I write this.
 
The truth:  I'm packing around an extra 30 lbs. of fat and it is driving me crazy. I'm pretty sure when (not if) I get this weight gone, I'm going to feel better. How could I not? Ugh.  Everything is such an effort. I can't even believe I'm posting this photo here but I put it out on FB last night as I had some great pics of my friends I wanted to share. 

I cannot hide the fact I have gained far too much weight. No freaking wonder I don't feel good.
Last week, we visited an antique store when we were in Prosser.  There was an older woman there who I think is the owner of the store. She was sitting laying in a lazy-boy recliner and it was obvious she didn't move much from that chair. I could really see myself in that position someday as the more weight I gain, the harder and harder it is to move. One just feels like a slug. I need to keep moving.
 
So, I'm not going to make any crazy promises or big plan to lose 30 lbs. in 30 days or anything like that. I know what I need to do it. I just need to do it

Thanks to my friends Jan and Dorothy for the words of encouragement.  The words mean so much to me. 

I gotta go now and cross some more things off my to-do list.  One of the things not on my to-do list is self-loathing. It's not helpful.  I need to stop doing that and get into physical action.

love, susan 

3 comments:

  1. When you figure out how to stop that,(the self loathing)you let me know ya hear??? Kathy

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  2. I used to have a 26" waist. As I aged, the waist grew in number too. I hate my stomach... I hate how large my waistline has become. The rest of me has increased too, but the waistline bugs me the most. I miss that flat stomach I used to have when I was in my 30s and even into my early 40s. Now I'm 50-something and I don't even remember what it was like to see my rib cage.

    I totally *get this*. I totally get the feelings of self-loathing when it comes to the way our bodies change with age. I'm walking too... a lot. It may not lead to a flat stomach, but it does make me feel better for getting out there and moving.

    Who knows how long we'll be able to move comfortably? Someday we may need a walker to get around. Someday we may need a cane. Someday, we may not be able to get up and walk at all. So I will enjoy my walks - even if they don't result in a flat stomach. I will savor my time in the sunshine... enjoying what is around me and being grateful for mobility.

    You are beautiful. We are all beautiful. That's what I tell myself, and you know - sometimes it works. I am so thankful that I can walk. I am so thankful that I can get around my neighborhood. I am so thankful that I can walk a hiking trail with my dog.

    I'll gladly deal with the round belly. It's the least of my concerns.

    By the same token.. I sure hope these 2-3 mile walks can give me a TINY glimpse of a rib. That would be awesome! LOL

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  3. Thank you for your encouragement, Susan. It means a lot to me!!

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