Today was an interesting work day. At the age of 51, I'm still finding ways of pushing through that lack of self-confidence that rears its ugly head more than I care to admit. One of my bosses was heading for court this afternoon and although I didn't really think about it before I walked through the doors of the office this morning, when I did, the paperwork started flying. I've noticed for quite some time, I'm not the same person I used to be. When I was younger, I didn't lack self-confidence as much as I do these days. I don't know where my confidence went. But, when the shit hits the fan, life experiences have taught me that I can either face whatever is right in front of me and use everything I know to push through it or I can run and hide.
It's been a rough couple of days and I've been extra thankful to have work to keep my mind occupied. Life stuff just kind of comes when you least expect it and I'm glad I have some tools for coping with it. One of my favorite tools are little cliches that come in really super handy for days and weeks like this one. This too shall pass.
Do your best. That's the one that worked for me today. When given a task that I'm not sure about, I always say, outloud "I'll do my best". And, it worked today. My boss depended on me to do what I do best so she could do what she does best. It felt really good to just do the best job with what I know and today it was enough.
I think pushing through life-stuff helps set the bar higher for whatever life brings me. Up until now, my life has been interesting, hard, fun, depressing, joyful, adventurous, boring, mainstream, colorful ... I could add to this list ad infinitum. That's what makes it worth getting up and doing all over again. The unpredictability of it all is what I like the most.
I have no idea what tomorrow will be like. I have plans but that doesn't mean I know how it's all going to turn out. My part is to get up, suit up, and show up for my life and see what happens! Whew ... I know ... kind of deep for a Friday night.