Wednesday, August 22, 2012

One More Get Up

My son and daughter-in-law 2009 
Just one more "get up" before I get on that plane to go see my kids.  Am I ever excited!

I know I've written about this before but it bears repeating.  I am a former future-tripper.

I used to live my life by wishing the days away.  Thoughts like this used to rule my world: I can't wait til Friday,  I wish it would hurry up and be summer, is is 5 o'clock yet, I can't wait to see him, I can't wait til my vacation.

A series of significant events happened in my life and it has changed how I see time.  It was not an easy transition but oh so worth the growing pains to get there.  Today, and everyday, I am all about being in the moment.

I wish could have some of those days back that I wished away. The best I can do is encourage others to not wish their days away. Do those things that make you happy.

My neighbor across the street is dying from brain cancer. She is on hospice care now and life is getting less and less fun for her. She has lost the ability to walk because her muscles have atrophied from laying too long. She lies in the hospital bed they brought her and tells me she watches me in the front yard throwing the Frisbee to my dogs and feels envious.  I feel guilty. Sometimes I just want to lay around and waste time. She doesn't have much time left. My heart hurts for her. I know she'd do things differently, if she could.  I still can. I wave at her when I leave for work in the morning. I can't see whether or not she sees me but I wave anyway. Yesterday, I got up from my desk and walked an extra lap around my the cubicles in honor of my neighbor. Bless her heart.

On a happier note ... I am really super stoked about going tomorrow, I still have today to live and I don't want to miss a moment of it.  I'm still not packed yet. No worries.

How are you going to spend your day today?

love, susan


 

4 comments:

  1. My kind of girl...not packed yet...what fun to say I am going ..grab a few things and be gone. I used to start a month ahead of time..too much to worry about. Now just grab and go. No worries no stress just have fun.

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  2. You could come with nothing but the clothes on your back and we would still have fun. Packing is over-rated!

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  3. I hope you have a fabulous well-deserved trip, Susan!! Be safe and have a blast...

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  4. Just like you, I like to do things at the last moment. I pack in an hour and leave. I am sorry for your neighbour , I hope that your friendly presence and your gesture {you waving at her } will give her some solace.
    Your son and daughter in law are very sweet , love that photograph !

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